I don't know what is wrong with me today.. Practically emo-ing till i fell asleep the whole afternoon.. Lots of memories came back to me..

"i dunno if i love you.
i dunno if i only like you.
i dunno if i got time for you.
i dunno wad i wan now.
i noe i'm in the wrong.
i'm sorry, if i've hurt you.
in either way, i would definitely hurt you.
maybe its the best for us not to start?
i nid some time to think abt this..
before anything happens,
den it will be too late."
i rather things to be the way it is, like before.
but its difficult, so difficult.

I can love you with my heart & soul, but it doesn't matter anymore.. Its always like that right.. The guy whom you love deeply always choose to leave you in the end.. On the other hand, the guys you dun like keep coming to you..

Why is it so hard for both side to remain in love? Why can't i just have the one i love to last with me? Why the one i love don't even cherish me? Why he treats me so badly, i still love him so much? Why would he want to start a relationship with me if he didn't even love me from the start? Why must he treat me like this? So many fcuking WHY!

WHY! WHY! WHY!

Tears keep flowing.. My heart hurts so badly.. I really, really need you now.. You made me fall into a pit that i can never climb out of le.. All these words, these feelings, those trusts, i will never believe it ever again.. I really wish you would bring me out of this misery and give me the happiness that no one else can.. But where are you? Not even a call or sms from you anymore.. I'm trying my best to control myself whenever i took out my phone, wanting to sms you.. I don't want to bug you..

Heartbreaks after heartbreaks..
Countless buckets of tears..
Pieces of a shattered heart..

Rachel Louise Koe
xiaoyun/baka/yun
22nd
16th march 1988
Pisces
Attached to my BABY ZAMRI! =)
Super unavailable
rachel.louise@live.com.sg


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i'm not perfect girl
i'll piss & annoy you & say stupid stuffs
and then i'll take it back
but its all because i love & care for you